2008-09-18
They say. They just say it.
But they do not understand.
But I cannot blame them.
I cannot blame everyone for my actions.
(Seems like a rapid conclusion these months)
I blame myself for listening.
For taking it as an upper lift for my self image as an employee in this screwful industry.
Cannot really live up to what I say I have, since I merely have the lower than basic idea of the whole concept of everything in these technologies.
And then, I am surprised when they ask for more. And why was I surprised? Because I believed them.
Because I let them mislead me into thinking I had what it takes to have a take on a full professional working environment in this working area.
But I do not. I am simply an enthusiastic little screw up that was not really getting into anything seriously.
"It does not work? Well, I will pass."
Great fucking motto.
Fuck it.
But they do not understand.
But I cannot blame them.
I cannot blame everyone for my actions.
(Seems like a rapid conclusion these months)
I blame myself for listening.
For taking it as an upper lift for my self image as an employee in this screwful industry.
Cannot really live up to what I say I have, since I merely have the lower than basic idea of the whole concept of everything in these technologies.
And then, I am surprised when they ask for more. And why was I surprised? Because I believed them.
Because I let them mislead me into thinking I had what it takes to have a take on a full professional working environment in this working area.
But I do not. I am simply an enthusiastic little screw up that was not really getting into anything seriously.
"It does not work? Well, I will pass."
Great fucking motto.
Fuck it.
Labels: Failure