2019-12-30
Creeped
"She's like, so whatever"
(Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne)
I cannot not take it personally.
I am trying to do a pretty selfless act (yes, according to Joey from "Friends", no act is truly selfless, I know, because if the other side is enjoying your act, you probably also feel good, but still, as selfless as it can be).
I am trying to help. I know she is forgetful, I know life is hard in that sense for her.
But ignoring me? Seriously?
I guess she just have not realized yet, that I am not as important for her as she thinks and that she does not care about me as much as she thinks.
I guess it is not easy to accept that something that was hugely meaningful and perhaps good in your life at some point is now pretty unimportant and actively harmful.
Or maybe she is "doing this for me". But even if she does, complete unannounced silence is not the answer. This is offensive and hurtful.
"Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay"
(New - No Doubt)
(Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne)
I cannot not take it personally.
I am trying to do a pretty selfless act (yes, according to Joey from "Friends", no act is truly selfless, I know, because if the other side is enjoying your act, you probably also feel good, but still, as selfless as it can be).
I am trying to help. I know she is forgetful, I know life is hard in that sense for her.
But ignoring me? Seriously?
I guess she just have not realized yet, that I am not as important for her as she thinks and that she does not care about me as much as she thinks.
I guess it is not easy to accept that something that was hugely meaningful and perhaps good in your life at some point is now pretty unimportant and actively harmful.
Or maybe she is "doing this for me". But even if she does, complete unannounced silence is not the answer. This is offensive and hurtful.
"Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay"
(New - No Doubt)
Labels: Failure
2019-12-11
Life Makes
Unfortunate sense.
Labels: Failure
2019-12-10
Perspectives
The familiar and reminiscing sounds of post-bridge "My Immortal" (Band Version) excerpt started ringing from my mobile phone.
"That ringtone..."
I smiled.
"Yeah, nothing changes"
"I see..."
I could sense the internal disappointment she had at that moment.
"That ringtone..."
I smiled.
"Yeah, nothing changes"
"I see..."
I could sense the internal disappointment she had at that moment.
Labels: Failure